For a Change

Suuuper excited to have this bag :) Thank you for the sponsor hehehehe... This best fits with a Melissa wedge shoes :D

Caught By Surprise

For the past 2 years that I was so much in love, I was very busy planning how to make things work between us. Busy changing my ways, my style and my life to fit things together. I have read books, asked advices to many people and even did my research on how to make you happy.  I was really busy that I have not thought of this day would come. I have forgotten to learn how to react when this time comes. I have missed out the part where, what if I am heading in the different direction? what if I was too busy planning to make us stay together while you were too busy making things work with someone else? I haven't thought of that.

I have learned so many things for the past two years, that I should have not planned my life because I cannot control everything. One day things will change and I cannot do anything about it.  That however i change or tried to fit in, if the other person is in the other side of the world, things will never happen.


GOODBYE LASTTRAIN... I wish you happiness... thank you for the wonderful memories. You were my first love and you are my one true love. :)

headache...

This day is really different... Im not sure how to feel but definitely i respect that person.
It feels really weird but this time I think I need to do what I should have done a long time ago. I know that nothing will go wrong if I will do the right thing. It is so hard to decide for something when all your life is believing for something that turned out to be a lie. I am not sure why God has put me into this, but definitely i have learned my lessons well...

LASTTRAIN... last stop...

Thoughts...

Good thing I was able to keep this blog, as I browse all the words I have written here, I can see my journey and how it was... I am not sure why am I still here despite of everything, WHAT'S IN IT FOR ME?!

Reality...

Never really thought that this day would come, I mean I guess I know this would happen and this is the most dreaded part of the relationship I have ever thought but I never thought really that this will come. Facing  your fear plus the reality is a bit too harsh. Life is different now, I'm not sure if I have to fight for what is right or for what I want. I am not even sure if  fighting for what I want will really make me happy knowing that it is not the right thing to do...

Whatever and however it is going to end, the is rough ahead of it's journey. 

Broken...

That feeling when you want to cry already but your tears won't come out? that feeling when your heart feels like it is stopping for a moment every time you remember that dreaded occurrence in your life? when you are feeling that as if something is blocking your throat that you can't barely sip a small amount of water because you can't breathe already? that instance when you can't do anything but to wish that it will all end up soon?

As i have always told to myself, everyone has their own weakness. Even Superman has his kryptonite that makes him weak, even the strongest person gets hurt sometimes and I, I have surpassed all the unimaginable things but this situation is really killing me. I don't even know how to start or how to end this misery. I am just longing for the day where I can sleep, eat and wake up in the morning with a peaceful heart.

"Everyone needs to feel the rain to enjoy the rainbow"

One Hell of A Ride...

This 1st quarter of the year for me is very very very challenging in terms of career and personal life. I guess, things are becoming clearer to me now, that I can almost accept the reality. I am getting braver and stronger...

Another thing is that my Amber were able to passed her exam at La Consolacion and will be the youngest Grade 1 at the age of 5 1/2, and now, waiting for the result of her test as well from UPIS, oh Lord i'll be the proudest mom on earth if she will be admitted to UP...

Next month,( oh no! )I  will be getting a year older and I wish that I will become wiser... I just wish that I can get through with what I am facing now.